Wednesday, August 29, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@6:29 AM
Everything was simple, everything was fine
Until the day I met you that things started to change.
You transmuted my believe in love
For the old me has never falled for a thing called l-o-v-e
Gave me the assurance, gave me faith
Into committing myself
Got me into a believer
But why,
WHY do you have to be the one to crush it all up too?
Got me back to being sceptical 'bout love.
Do not those times we had mean anything to you?
Do not those promises you made mean anything to you?
Do not the times when you were away and I waited persistently mean anything either?
I still remember
Clear in my mind how I waited for your call everyday when you were away
Kept my mobile with me all the time, afraid you might call
But in the end it all came to nought.
Why is it so when it comes to you I let in so easily?
Thought I felt the chemistry between us
But that was just my thinking.
You might feel guilty for what has happened
But really, a word 'sorry' is never enough, wont get me back to my normal self
There aint any point asking me if i'm okay either
When you very well know I am NOT.
The sorrow in my heart is torturing me slowly
The emptiness i'm feeling on the day u slipped away
How I wish this pain & agony would fade away
But it never did, never will
For you've left a scar in my heart on the day you walked away.
You might seem oblivious to what I'm going thru now
But let me tell you, it's lugubriously HORRENDOUS!
I've learnt my lesson, the hard way, yes.
Time to find a sanctuary
Where I feel invulnerable in
Gain back my strength, confidence & go on with my life.
Learning to be a more of a sage person
Caged up my possesion, my heart.
Promised myself to protect it the best I can
Let bygones be bygones
You're my history! Perfidious you are.
That's what I'm always reminding myself
For I know I deserve much better then what I'm deserving now.
Well to the readers and to you especially if you happen to read this (i'm sure you know who you are), dont get offended for what i've written . Writing poems is a way for me to express myself. The way i feel. So no hard feelings aite?
`xoxo
Jan ♥
